Now At Jurong library, so sian...my jie and friend go eat..now i am just sitting here waiting for them come back..erm arif is here at the library too, just blogging for fn right now. cos feeling weird recently, Mr Chia not teaching me Anymore..i just cant get anything in my head. i thing i am born dumb. maybe i am , cos mum says i am not, however i just feel sick abt people controling my life, i just dun know how to make them expect miracle from me, i was watching The Dream Feat. Mariah Carey the music video My Love, i hope to become one of them one day, i am being inspired but cannot find the thing to keep me moving forward, maybe it is a barrier in me i have to overcome but as time comes i will know right?
So maybe without any afford i will earn lots of money and have lots of opportunities, but i dun believe so as i think that nothing come for free, erm i have recent thoughts abt getting a new phone but dad dun want to spend on me because he thinks that the money can spend on my siblings more worth, so i told him a few nights before, (Fine! i dun want it too. I am not worth right, Stop Investing on me)
I regretted saying that la..what if he stop giving me pocket money, erm yeah i have a troubled life...is anyone coming to comfort me from the scenario of mine.........I envy people but what for even if the feeling is there, you just get greedy after what you get and you want more. My mum was right about one thing, no one gets satisfied with what they have, they just come back and want more and better
Recently when i was bathing, i was thinking about the life i had with NPCC friends when i was listening to katy perry think of you, so i chatted with hidayah and felt a warmth and comfort. I felt better. Thanks Hidayah.
I was also recently thinking about the friends i have hurt last time and i feel that there was really a empty space that i have not realise, i really have not apologise deeply from my heart but just say , people say No Action Tak Only. I believe that i have really become that, i am a useful loyal and trustworthy friend, what have become of me, hopefully through this holiday things would get better , i have thought of everyday a new day, every day you wake up you want to anticipate change, but we just do not give ourselves chance, my girl is migrating soon. i will miss her...
but life goes on........
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Monday, June 1, 2009
Oh gosh i have not posted for very long ha ha.....same old habit..make blog than so called abandon it ..erm now is the holidays than quite boring...because miss my clique and confirm miss my jie one..now i sitting in front of com thinking of what to do next..dunno to do facebook or coursework....i am just so confused..still not thinking of getting work but still aiming for the Hugo boss sale than can get my duffel bag. Eh ...this morning mummy brought my siblings and i to city hall there the dim sum restaurant..er nobody there because private area for club members..than e were the first group there, nobody so the dishes served up very quickly, i loved the prawn dumpling but we only order a set...how sad...(Rhymes)
Than left at around 1pm....than come home..play psp...but felt headache ...still play psp.....i am CRAZY....ok now i am gonna stop posting here...i have no aim....i failed badly and i have no aim....
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